The End of Myself

This morning once again the church services on TV replaced the empty pew that most always would have me sitting on it.  It is going on three months now this saga in my life and so many questions have been asked and so many prayers to somehow end up today with the words from Charles Stanley.  Sometimes we have to come to the end of ourselves before God can bless us.  He blesses us when we are obedient to his commands and so many times we have no idea what form of blessing that will be.

Another pastor preached that the things man hold in the greatest esteem mean nothing to God, as matter of fact he made the comment they are an abomination to God.  The words out of context are not as profound as in his sermon.  We esteem silver and gold, precious stones yet in heaven gold is pavement and walls are precious stones and gates are giant pearls.  Yet here on earth we look to these things for security and pleasure yet these will not be treasures we lay up in heaven.  No matter how much gold we have or other riches in this life they are wood, hay, and stubble as far as what will be considered when our works are tried by fire.  What are we doing for the love of Christ?  Are our motives to look good or have people praise us?  God stole away to places to pray with his father and not before men.  Do we take our prayers and go to the closet and pray in earnest as we have been told to do?

If we can just reach one with our witness it will be as much treasure to cast at Jesus feet as those that witness to thousands when that one accepts Christ as Lord and Savior.

How many of us want to do great and wonderful things for the Lord and when we see ashes instead of beauty we are disappointed and feel we are a failure for Christ?  How many times have we jumped out there and performed tasks and then when no results turn around and ask God why?  Did we wait for him to lead in those things?  Perhaps this is why the warning to discern the spirit and see whose it is.  In our flesh we can do nothing but in Christ we can do all things.

In my life I believe the heart is deceitful above all things and when I step out on what I believe to be faith and put things out there for others to see or speak to those I love about things I know to be true the question comes to me....who am I doing this for in my heart?  I believe that it is that the Lord would be glorified but in somewhere down in that deceitful heart did I want to share the glory with Him?  God does not want to share the glory.  He wants it for himself and in due time he will reward us for deeds done that will last in heaven.

Today I am asking myself if I am to spend the rest of my life unable to go and perform in the way I always have;  will I glorify the Lord?  Will I be as the girl in the wheel chair that has no use of her arms?  Will I still go forward or will I stand still?  One thing I am certain life will go on.  The sun will rise and set, seasons will come and go and those left behind will continue on.  I am expedient.