How in the world could I not love him back

     The Lord your God will circumcise your hearts and the hearts of your descendants, so that you may love him with all your heart and with all your soul, and live. Deuteronomy 30:6

     My lesson this morning was on a divided heart and we were asked to draw lines dividing a drawn heart where our heart was at some point in our life. I went back to the time when I was 28 years old and the majority of my heart was the approval of others while one part, a not so large part was God and the other part was my selfish desires.  Sadness overwhelmed me that it was that way, and as we all do, I tried to justify it with looking for acceptance, love, security, and trust.  These are real issues ,however, I believe it is not an excuse. 

     The next thing we were to do was read Deuteronomy 30:6 and let it be a prayer in our hearts. As I read the scripture I looked at the scriptures above and read verses 4 and 5 also and then God spoke to my heart in the way I long for him to do when I am in his word.  He has my total attention, my total understanding and then he touches my heart in a way that absolutely makes me feel the scripture and His Word is alive. 

     Deuteronomy 30:4 If any of thine be driven out unto the outmost parts of heaven, from thence will the LORD thy God gather thee, and from thence will he fetch thee: ⁵ And the LORD thy God will bring thee into the land which thy fathers possessed, and thou shalt possess it; and he will do thee good, and multiply thee above thy fathers.

     Perhaps one would have to have my background for the Lord to have these words touch their soul as verse 4, did mine.  They would find it difficult to trust God loved and accepted them.  For me these words brought about this response that I wrote down in my study book. 

     “If we want to see the heart of God, the love for his chosen people, just feel His words.  And this same God chose me to be his child.  He loves me just that much.  How in the world could I not love him back and desire an undivided heart that is totally surrendered to him?  I love you Lord.”

And the land that he will bring to me will be the promised land of heaven.  Oh! If only I could pass on to others the love and desire I have to serve the Lord.  I have been on both sides.  I have had the divided heart and it took years for God to circumcise my heart and even now I still am looking to have a heart like His and let it be totally filled with God’s will and not Lillian’s will.

     Tomorrow I will be 68 years old.  I was born once in 1944 again in 1960 but I was given a new undivided heart in 1997.  Why simply because I finally was convinced He loved me and I have given my life to want to love Him back.  You see duty to serve has a vast difference that to serve out of love.  Oh I wouldn’t trade the last years of my life for all those before for nothing.  God is my high tower, my refuge, my strength and in Him I can do all things, like love.