Sandy

Driving home from Mt. Enterprise today watching the leaves begin to fall as the wind blew against the car. The sun was shining and the temperature was more like summer than fall. 

My mind drifted back to the loss of our dog Sandy.  This Christmas she would not pick her favorite spot underneath the Christmas tree to lie down before the packages crowded her out.  The vet walked in and with Sandy in his arms asking if I wanted to come in and hold her and I told him I didn't think I could handle that.  He said, "come give her a hug and kiss goodbye."  I held my emotions in check because being wired as I am once the release came there would be no turning it off.

Once again walking back into the empty house another memory came of the time our daughter walked into the kitchen after I came home from work.  "Mama I hate coming home to an empty house."  I was not sorry to see the job end when the position was no longer needed.

There is something nostalgic about Fall and is easy to become sad.  When thinking of my lifetime and all the blessings we have had then sadness quickly turns to thankfulness.  A lifetime mate, three healthy beautiful children, five grandchildren, and three great grandchildren as well as those we chose as grandchildren.   Lifetime friends, and too many pets to recall, yet Sandy will always be the most special of all.  She was only five months old when our last granddaughter was born and they were constant companions. Sandy wanted to share everything that belonged to Alex.  We took Alex out of the car seat and Sandy immediately replaced her. She loved us all unconditionally and every morning as Eddie sat down to put on his socks she would walk over roll over on her back waiting for him to acknowledge her presence.  He won't have anyone to worship him now as he puts on his socks.  No longer will she lie in front of the wood burning fireplace. Sandy was most faithful and loyal.  Unconditional love for us all.  She will be missed she was my dog but she will not remain a sad memory but a beautiful blessing of thirteen years.