Outside our living room window

Isn't it amazing how we can see something a curse one second and a blessing the next? We bought these huge 36"x6' windows for our living room and dining room and they are so cold in the winter due to my desire to have ones that open to the inside so I could wash them.

Every time I sit and look out the window I am rewarded. This morning a Blue Jay perched on the end of the limb of the elm tree that is fully leaved out. Then the majestic oak showed herself with her newly forming leaves hanging with reddish brown drippings promising the beautiful leaves to soon open in their full glory.

The yard has brown places amongst the bright green of the early Spring grasses and the remains of leaves lay fallen since the last time the yard was raked. The new John Deere is sitting there in what most of the time, I feel is an eyesore of a barn covered with hanging tarps to protect hay from the rain. It houses our boat, tractor and sometimes a vehicle when needed. Maybe had we had the funds at the time and had built a road to the back I would not see the benefit for this close proximity of our home. Our customers can come and back up to the stall to get their hay whether the ground has been drenched from rain or is dry as a bone.

I love the way the shadows fall across the yard. In early morning sometimes the trees will will reflect red from the rising sun. This seems to especially happen in the fall. Early mornin dew will glisten on the tips of unmown grass and the entire yard and beyond will be in a light red glow. The leaves will gently fall to the ground as he breeze blows them hither and yon.. In the late afternoon, especially the end of March the shadows will be long and stretch from the south west across my view.

I won't have to go outside to feel the afternoon cool wind blow my hair or upon my face. I can feel the knot form in my stomach, I recognize the shaking that begin in my shoulders and run down to my hands. I feel the tightness in my chest and my mid section feels like a band is being gripped tightly around me and once more the memory washes across my mind and I hear the scream and I begin to cry.

Once more I look out that same window which promises Spring, hope, new life and my heart screams, Thank you Lord! for letting me have my baby for 26 years. Thank you for leaving our beautiful daughter to comfort me and love me. Thank you Lord for our son who found his way home to us. Thank you Lord for our grandchildren and our great grand children. You Lord are Faithful and Greatly to be Praised.

All this comes about from simply looking out a window that turns cold in the winter but allows us to see your glory all year long.

March 26, 2010. 20 years have passed and still the Lord remains Faithful, True, Majestic, my strength, my high tower, my buckler and most of all my Savior and comfortor as no human on earth can be. Once again Thank You Lord!